Heavy weight

sometimes the weight we carry isn’t physical.  This journey… it’s not just about loosing weight.  That’s part of it… but not all of it!  I am working through weighty stuff… getting there one blessed inch at a time!

Living not just existing

I am afraid of everything. It’s ridiculous, and I am aware of that. I battle constant anxiety. I fear being good enough, liked, successful. I fear being alone and big crowds. I am a walking contradiction. I spent 30+ years of my life quietly existing because I was too afraid of living. It took a…

Amazing friends

I have a life long friend… she has known me since I was 15… and I am now 51.  She lives miles away but saw a picture of my niece’s baby shower and instantly knew that I was struggling!!! (Seriously every kind of sweet pink confection known to man…  EVERYWHERE!!!!) She checked in on me…

Slowly, but Surely

Sometimes, when I feel like the weight is coming off SOOOOO SLOOOOOWWWWS… I have troubles with head games. These are the games my brain plays with me.  Why bother trying?  Would one little tiny bite really hurt? My weight loss is very slow.  Myetabolism fights me at every turn… but I have been holding tight…

The smoosher

After thinking through yesterday, it occurred to me that I was more than a little remiss on many things last year. I missed my dental cleaning… which I NEVER miss. I didn’t do my semi-annual blood work (I get it drawn every 3 months and missed the last one.) I also missed my annual grope…

Chucking the crutches

Crutches If you knew me, you would read the title and think oh, now what has she done. Not that kind of crutch!!! It was an interesting day at work. Mentoring someone and learning their way of taking things in and ability to adopt… their patterns… Having them point out my patterns… some good, some…

Bring it on

Today I woke up fighting… not sure why… but I woke up ready to tackle big stuff… projects at work, my propensity towards packratness… my diet. Bring it on I say, As I begin my day Get up and fight, Look at the challenges in sight. Pick the smallest one Tackle and get it done…

UP and at em

This is where I am today. I woke up from a rough night sleep feeling blue and a little lost. I am trying to combat these things without turning to food. In this quote, everything is spot on what I need to hear… but boy did number 4 jump out at me!!! This is exactly…

When laser focus isn’t in your best interest.

Today is my Day 11… I have a rough idea of where I started 11 days ago, but not an exact number. My first official “starting again weight” was on day 5, and I weighed 183.6. I do know that my home scale this morning said I weighed 178.9.. fresh out of the shower in…

When hormones fight back

Like many women “of a certain age”, my hormones are not playing nice. My body is holding onto fat like a kangaroo Mommy protecting her infant Joey… Fast and in the belly pouch! I have been hot, cold, crying, laughing… and all within a matter of seconds. I have been logging my food, walking, 100%…