I spent the better part of the last two weeks feeling so stressed I almost didn’t care about anything at all. There was just too much going on to even wrap my head completely around it.
So, I bit the bullet and wrapped my head around it. I spent an entire day going through my office, wallet, bags, everything and figuring out exactly every little thing that I needed to do. Some things as simple as paying a few bills to all the parts of planning a big event. The list is well over 400 items. It calmed me down. Finally, all that stuff that I kept forgetting or that was clouding my head was written down and my head cleared up for the first time in ages. I’m back to feeling like a human being again.
I managed to still lose a little during this time, which is great. I didn’t turn to all the normal things that I would have a few months ago. Now all I have to manage to do is over 400 things and continue to lose.
Part of what calmed me, other than figuring out what I actually need to do, is trying to do at least one nice thing to take care of myself every day. I’ve seen enough Oprah to know that if I plan on continuing to take care of all my responsibilities and doing it well I need to take care of myself first. It’s amazing how much better doing little things like getting my car washed or doing a face mask or taking a bubble bath can make you feel.
So the plan for this week: continue to keep track of every little thing I need to do to keep me above water, keep hammering away at that same list, and do one nice thing for myself every day. Let’s see how it goes!