The journey of a lifetime

Today I needed a heavy dose of reality.  I knew I was going to lunch with my coworkers.  I knew it would be tough… and I feel fragile. just before lunch I pulled up a picture of me at my very largest… and a picture of me today. Bam!  It may be a struggle, but…

A little competition

Do you respond to challenges well?  I am not talking about life’s challenges.  I am focusing more along the lines of healthy competition. I find that I don’t respond well to winner takes all kind of challenges.  I am more apt to take a back seat and let someone else claim victory… but when the…

Heavy weight

sometimes the weight we carry isn’t physical.  This journey… it’s not just about loosing weight.  That’s part of it… but not all of it!  I am working through weighty stuff… getting there one blessed inch at a time!

Finding your strength

Do you know how many diets you have tried in life?  I am not even sure for me… I have tried so many over the years.  I started dieting at the ripe old age of 8… yes, 8! I would lose a little, get off track, throw the baby out with the bath water, gain…

Feel like you aren’t fast enough?

Are you a slow loser like me?  I have been averaging between .5-1 pound a week.  I have a thyroid issue and hormonal challenges. I am losing… but more importantly I am feeling better!  I have a little bit of energy, & I am smiling again. Weight is not a battle that you win and…

Living not just existing

I am afraid of everything. It’s ridiculous, and I am aware of that. I battle constant anxiety. I fear being good enough, liked, successful. I fear being alone and big crowds. I am a walking contradiction. I spent 30+ years of my life quietly existing because I was too afraid of living. It took a…

Easily distracted by tasty objects.

I saw this shirt and was laughing… hard enough for tears to come out my eyes… and then the tears were no longer laughter. I absolutely relate to this shirt, and the struggle is REAL!!!! I wake up everyday. Today is going to be perfect. I have my food prepped and ready to go. My…

Super Bowl Sunday

My team was eliminated in the last round of Playoffs… I have been invited to a few parties. There will be all kinds of temptations laying around me… this is another one of those days where failure to plan will equate to plan to fail!!! Not on my watch!!!! Normally I avoid TV because it…

Amazing friends

I have a life long friend… she has known me since I was 15… and I am now 51.  She lives miles away but saw a picture of my niece’s baby shower and instantly knew that I was struggling!!! (Seriously every kind of sweet pink confection known to man…  EVERYWHERE!!!!) She checked in on me…

Slowly, but Surely

Sometimes, when I feel like the weight is coming off SOOOOO SLOOOOOWWWWS… I have troubles with head games. These are the games my brain plays with me.  Why bother trying?  Would one little tiny bite really hurt? My weight loss is very slow.  Myetabolism fights me at every turn… but I have been holding tight…